Of course, it has only been almost three months ever since I got employed with this non-compensating job. I go to work, bringing my parents’ money and the dinner/lunch our helper prepared for me, and then that’s it. I do my job as a medical slave. Then I have to adjust with every people I meet. The patients and their S.O.s, the other staff of the hospital. Different people. Then here comes the changes I meet everyday.

I know, I know. I’m such a complainer. But when I meet changes every minute of everyday, I get burnout.”

You see how slacker I was? I kept on thinking about this for a long time. And now, I hate it that I had to waste my time on this, on this same old shit. Instead of accepting things, instead of enjoying every opportunity to grow on being an adult, I was doing that. Complain. I was focusing on all the negative things. What happened to everything I’ve learned from Rhonda Byrne? All this positivity and Law of Attraction? They were all sucked. I was placed in a workplace full of negativity. Patients who complains and other workmates who also get burnout but I was not able to resist the power of the negativity. So shameful me, I realized (finally) that everything is so wrong.

Ooops. No, I didn’t quit. Why would I? This is my chosen profession, I don’t want to put everything into waste. What shot me dead is that I just have to accept that things like these always, always happen with the career I have chosen. I must resist the bad vibes and push myself. Mind over matter. Enjoy every bit of my work. Even though I don’t get paid. And… grab every opportunity to improve my skills more and more. Resist and Push.